rethinking

How can I not rethink about things if it’s affecting the most important matter to me -family, you? ๐Ÿ‘ช๐Ÿ‘ถ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ˜ฎ

A couple of years ago, when I heard the “whistle” (of opportunity) signaling me to start, I hurriedly leaped forward excitedly and purposefully to pursue the goal I always had in mind – to finally start the overdue/pending “journey” I was supposed to start years ago. That was residency training (also called “specialty training”). I was really pretty determined to pursue it that time. I had no other plans in mind. 

However, as I trudge on, I have started to feel that the “busy-ness” and the occasional (?) craziness and chaos surrounding me (trainingwise) has started to take its toll on me. Most significantly, it has taken a lot of my “allotted” time for family and my little boy… These reasons are beginning to make me think again, tempting me to halt and turn to the opposite direction…โ†ช๏ธโ†ฉ๏ธ โ€ข

Yes, undeniably, I am at a certain crossroad. That is between the road that can give me more time with family (could be anywhere as long as with family) and the road that can give me the opportunity to polish my skills as a doctor, allow me to serve others more but will give me (so much) less time with family… that is while I am “on” training (and I still have a year or more to go before I finish it). Missing my family (thinking about my son-his health and safety) most of the time while on duty far from home has been making me feel more tired and sad. 

As I analyze things, I can see a glimpse of my “goal” (the pot of happiness ๐Ÿ™‚ ) at the end of both roads and that is an assurance, but the ‘distance’ to that goal is really different in each road.  ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

My previously so tightly locked hand to the present path has started to loosen… but is still holding on, for now…

Can my grip sustain me until I see the end of this kinda long and crooked road? In the meantime, I just hold on… not too tightly but still holding on… waiting for a trigger (very good reason) to let go… or a motivation to continue on. ๐Ÿ›ฃ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ฏ

I have been praying for guidance and enlightenment in making the best decision because, obviously, my family is my happiness… ๐Ÿ™‚ โค๏ธ 

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Has anyone been to a similar situation/dilemma? ๐Ÿค”

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Our Day

I woke up with a happy heart today…ย 

This is the day I always looked forward to celebrate years ago… Mother’s day!ย 

Yey! This is already my second year to celebrate this special day and, just like the first, I am filled with inexplicable happiness. I feel so invincible. I feel that nothing and nobody can make me unhappy today. ย Thank you po God!ย 

One reason I am grateful and happy today is because, again, I am reminded of how blessed we three are because of our mother, our super nanay…
She is my epitome of unconditional love and positivity. She is the reason I do not give up amidst struggles. She is the reason I always find a reason to laugh amidst difficulties. She is the reason I aim to be the best wife and mother since I became both. She is the reason I pray to be more generous and kind to everybody, related and not. It is because she is the best!ย Her optimism is very contagious and she has made a lot of people happy. ๐Ÿ™‚

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“Nanay, you have planted positive seeds of love, faith, perseverance, humility and joy in our hearts. You are more than deserving to reap all the positive fruits of what you planted. Thank you for being my inspiration. You are immensely loved! Happy Mother’s day to us! โค๏ธ ”

Happy Mother’s day to all mothers too!๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜